Before I say more I want to start by saying I'm not asking for free money. Read on to see what I actually mean...TL;DR: I need to raise money so I can move out/away and go to school, and hopefully get a somewhat steady income at least until I get a good job.
I'm sure a lot of you have noticed how much I've slowed down in my perceived art production based on how much I've been (not) submitting to this gallery lately. I assure you I've still been doing art, but a lot of school stuff and just general practice things that I can't really justify posting on a gallery like Deviantart (No I don't mean porn, I just mean unfinished studies and stuff).
This is due to a lot of things... The chief one being lack of motivation. I hate saying it that way because it just sounds like an excuse, but I'm going to be really honest and I'm not asking for pity or sympathy, just understanding. I've been pretty depressed for a while, and it got a lot worse around Bronycon last year, August. Let me tell you, when you just want to go to sleep until life gets interesting again and people stop hurting you deeply, drawing isn't really priority. I've kept up on Lunadoodle, where I draw every day (Except I missed one day when someone hurt me a lot and I just couldn't do much of anything but cry). So I've made sure I don't drop off the face of the earth or slowly give up on drawing.
Around December last year I finally caved and decided to start the search for an antidepressant that could help. I've gone through a few different ones now and most of them didn't really have any effect (From my point of view at least.) This latest one however seems to be helping a little bit. Really the thing that makes me say it feels like it's helping is that I've been more creatively inspired and satisfied with drawing/painting. I still occasionally break down crying for no good reason and spend most of my days alone trying to fend off the self-loathing.
Anyway, that's enough about that stuff. On to the meat of the journal.
I've been wanting to move out and live on my own (Away from my parents I mean), for quite a while now. At the beginning of last semester I was really close to pulling the trigger and moving away, but I made a last-minute (good, in hindsight) decision not to yet. Well now I've had my fill of this place and frankly I'm just done with this middle-of-nowhere town and I'm convinced most of the people who live here long-term by choice are crazy. So, I'm reviving my plans to move to Seattle. Why Seattle? Well I've always said it's because I have a crush on the city, but it's largely by process of elimination. I want to live on the west coast in a new city with some amount of presence from the games industry. That pretty much leaves Seattle or maybe
SF. I also have quite a few friends in the Seattle area, and there's a school there I'm looking to attend. I want to leave for Seattle ASAP. If it's possible, I want to leave here as soon as this school semester is over, probably leaving sometime in June.
Now the point. Moving costs money. I don't have a job, all my income is from commissions and (mostly) selling prints at conventions. It's a decent income, but not enough to live off of as it stands now. When I go to Seattle I plan to find at least a part-time job, so that should help cover a large amount of the cost hopefully, but I'm trying to be realistic and realize that I won't find a job right away. So I turn to you, my fans. I know I haven't been very present lately, but it's not because I'm abandoning you. I really believe that once I'm living in Seattle my mental and emotional state will change so significantly that you can expect at least my old level of output again. I'm not asking anyone for free money, as I said at first. So I have a few ways to hopefully help me be able to afford this new living situation.
- Continue selling at conventions. This is probably the biggest money-maker for me at this point and I already have plans to sell at 4 cons this year, probably adding a 5th. If this year's cons go as well as they did last year, I should be able to live off of that for about 6 months without a job, being very sparing on what I buy.
- Patreon. I know I've talked about this a lot, but I'm now at a point where I feel I can really justify it and also force myself to figure out what it should look like, ignoring my perfectionism. This would be the most dependable source of income, but could also be a source of even more stress.
- Commissions. I've dropped the ball on commissions lately. Thankfully I don't take payment up front much, because I've had some commissioners waiting on me for quite a while now. After BABScon, I think that this financial need can be enough motivation to get me to finally face the commissions and get them done. Plus hopefully take more in the future.
So on to what I ask of you guys. I need to know how many of you I could expect to support me through Patreon and/or commissions, and for how much. I need to figure out if this is really feasible.
My current plan is to go to BABScon this week, then when I get back to get hard at work on figuring out a Patreon along with starting up posts for Student of the Night again.
So my questions:Would you support me on Patreon? If so, for roughly how much? If it would depend on the rewards, what kinds of rewards would you like to see?Have you been wanting to commission me? Would you commission me if I started producing more and officially "opened" for commissions?
Further, if anyone, especially mutuals, live in or want to also move to the Seattle area, that could be useful to know too. I had been forming plans to move there with a friend who wanted to go, but they backed out so I'm back to figuring it out on my own and I have concerns about getting a roommate without having a traditional job and a rock-solid income, even if I do make a lot of money from the three things above.
I'm really excited to move, but also discouraged because I don't really know if it's at all possible financially. I think part of the reason my mood has improved a bit recently has been because I started planning to move there again. It really feels like the right thing. In an ideal world I could live off of my art alone, but I don't want to count on that. So... I ask for help. Not free help, but help no less. Thanks for reading this far if you have. I know it's a lot of personal dump and maybe even some TMI, but I want to remain totally honest.Update: I made my Patreon public, but with no rewards or milestones yet.